Friday was a bad day.
I woke up after about 8 1/2 hours of sleep feeling completely exhausted. Like stupid tired. My limbs felt like they weighed 50 lbs each, I could barely keep my eyes open, sentences began to fall about 5 words in because my brain just wasn't willing to chip in and help my mouth with words. I did't go to work because I was pretty sure I would be dangerous behind the wheel.
I am familiar with this kind of tired, but I was very surprised to see it. I've been doing really well lately, and fatigue hasn't really been a thing. And, of course, it popped up at the worst possible time - I had a couple classes coming to the library on Friday for a tour. So I'm frustrated about that. I'm also not sure what this means to my overall health.
It could be that I just did too much on Thursday and used up all my energy reserves. Even though I have been feeling pretty well, I'm still in the recovering from being very very sick. Spoonie rules still apply. Even if my disease isn't active (it's probably not), there's been a lot of damage to my system. It takes time for all that to recover. So even if I'm mostly better, I guess I still have definite limits and need to be careful to not over-do it.
I'm worried that I've been masking symptoms. I'm actually very good at ignoring how tired I am and working though fatigue. Not fatigue like I felt on Friday, but lesser fatigue. If I've been ignoring lesser fatigue, it could have built up, and then one super busy and tiring day finally overloaded me and I lost functionality.
There could also be mental health factors at work.
Anyway, as soon as I decided I wasn't going to make it to work, I went back to bed for another 5 hours and spent the rest of the weekend taking it easy. I'm feeling much better now, but I'm not sure how to interpret this event.
Do I cut back on the things I'm doing? Should I just try paying more attention to my energy levels? That would could be good or bad, because I'm just as good at creating psychosomatic symptoms as I am at ignoring real ones. Should I go on as I have been and write it off as a one time thing unless it happens again?
Worrying about this is stressing me out. And I don't like set-backs. At this point I'm probably over-thinking it and making mountains of molehills. f